You guys every get the feeling that sometimes you're doing not enough? like you know that u can really do better but u just didn't? currently, i feel like there's a big gap and i'm just lost in it.. i feel like there's something that i did wrong.. or everything that i've done is wrong.. why am i feeling like this? my exams are tomorrow, but its like, i'm not ready, and don't give a damn... its like i care bout something else more than this.. just hate the feeling that i've let someone down or done something wrong.. and i think i've just let a few people down.. aihz some things didn't go as planned, and some things caused pain and sorrow.. and i believe i'm the main cause of that.. well, like my blog says, i hate myself.. now i feel that more and more as each day passes.. i hate myself! haha..i wonder how it would be like if i was never alive, would everyone be happier? i do believe so.. well, this is making me think bout stuff that usually my close friends would detest.. ahh! fuck it.. [~.:nick:.~]
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-Profile-
Name's Nick,
Loves to have fun,
Can do crazy stuff sometimes,
Being quite lame these days,
Loves my babygirl,
Can't live without my friends =)
-Wishlist-
* more money consistently
* a new hand phone
* lots of shoes
* lots of clothes
* an acceptable car
* an apartment (not a flat)
* a high paying job
* boardshorts from Billabong
* new wallet
* a full day of spa
* an ogawa massage chair
* an ikea showroom bedroom
* a computer for myself
* ability to buy whatever i want, whenever i want
* for everything in this wishlist to come true ^^
